What I cannot gain in this life

I will write on my epitaph

Here rests a scalding soul

And his burning words

What I cannot gain in this life

I will write on my epitaph

I shall come in a beautiful line

Of a cicada’s riot

Sing a song of spending my breath

While dancing in the sun bath

I shall leave with melted snow

On a hot spring night

Tell a tale of wilderness spread

Beneath that immortal grass

What I cannot gain in this life

I will write on my epitaph

I shall hold on tight to your body

At the end of time

Though the house crashes

When a room of camellias crammed

I shall rot in the vastest land

With beasts by my side

The flowers of nature blooming

Between my bones and flesh

What I cannot gain in this life

I will write on my epitaph

I shall be the appendix

Of my gorgeous shade

Like the violin in black case

To only come out when darkness fades

I shall play tremendous music

Which people call melodious

And rest myself in silence

When no light exists

What I cannot gain in this life

I will write on my epitaph

I shall dip my spoon in the galaxy

And sip on the soup of fantasy

With stars as starters

and the moon as delicacy

I shall take a full bite

On the sizzling beach

Which god is decocting

Regardless of any preaching

What I cannot gain in this life

I will write on my epitaph

I shall take time to get mad

And take time to laugh

Devote a whole lifetime

To lite up that terminal lamp

I shall seize the moment

To get myself decent

For life is fire

That can vanish in a second

What I cannot gain in this life

I will write on my epitaph

I pray beside the oven

To myself up in the heaven

I curse in the cell

To myself down in the hell

Let me go

Set me free

Why my enemy is always me

What I cannot gain in this life

I will write on my epitaph

Here rests a scalding soul

And his burning words